WELCOME TO SIMPLY DEBBIE. IT IS MY DESIRE THAT
YOU WILL FEEL AND SEE THE HAND OF GOD THROUGH
ARTWORK, CRAFT PROJECTS, RECIPES, AND THE SHEER
LAUGHTER OF ME LEARNING TO SEW ON MY NEW
SEWING MACHINE. THIS IS A PRAYING BLOG AND
A BLOG THAT LOVES TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS.
WON'T YOU JOIN ME AS WE GREET 2011 AND ITS'
BLESSINGS, CHALLENGES, AND SMELLING THE ROSES
EVERY DAY. I'LL BE YOUR UMBRELLA WHEN STORM
CLOUDS COME YOUR WAY AND ASSURE YOU THERE
WILL BE A RAINBOW COME AGAIN.










Tuesday, January 5, 2010

I PICK DOOR NUMBER TWO.........




WHEN  ONE  DOOR  OF  HAPPINESS  CLOSES, 



ANOTHER  OPENS,  BUT  OFTEN  WE  LOOK



SO  LONG  AT  THE  CLOSED  DOOR  THAT  WE



DO  NOT  SEE  THE  ONE  THAT  HAS  BEEN



OPENED  FOR  US.



~HELEN  KELLER






THIS  TREE  REPRESENTS  THE  WORLD  SO  TO  SPEAK.  LET'S  PRETEND  IT  IS  ANY  WAY.



WHEN  A  PERSON  SUFFERS  A  BROKEN  HEART  IT  IS  DIFFERENT  FROM  DEPRESSION.



PEOPLE  JUST  ASSUME  BECAUSE  WE  ARE  IN  PAIN,  FROM   A  CHILD,  FOR  INSTANCE,



PASSING  ON  TO  HEAVEN  THAT  WE  ARE  DEPRESSED.



WHEN  YOU  ARE  IN  PAIN.....YOU  ARE  AWARE,  VERY  AWARE  OF  THE  LOVE  THAT  HAS



BEEN  TAKEN  FROM  YOU.   WHEN  YOU  ARE  DEPRESSED  YOU  DON'T  FEEL  LOVE  AND



NOTHING  MATTERS  TO  YOU.   I  THINK  YOU  CAN  EVENTUALLY  BECOME  DEPRESSED



FROM   YEARS  OF  PAIN  AND  NO  COPING  SKILLS  BUT  A  BROKEN  HEART



CAN  MAKE  YOU  FEEL  LIKE  YOU  ARE  GOING  CRAZY  BECAUSE  THE  LOVE  YOU  FELT



SO  DEEPLY  IS  GONE.  I  HOPE  I  MADE  SENSE.  WE,  WITH  PAINFUL  HEARTS  ARE



STILL  CLOSE  TO  THE  TREE  AND  EVENTUALLY  OUR  EXPERIENCE  WILL  GIVE  OTHERS



HOPE  WHEN  THEIR  HEARTS  ARE  SHATTERED.   WILL  I  EVER  STOP  ACHING  FOR  MY



DAUGHTER,  AMY.....NEVER.  ASK  ISABELLA,  ASK  DONNA,  ASK  JUDY,  ASK  BECKY, 



ASK  MELANIE,  ASK  ROSE,  ASK  BERNIE  AND  ALL  THE  OTHER  MOTHER'S  AND  FATHER'S........



IT  IS  A  PAIN  THAT  WILL  CONTINUE  UNTIL  WE  ARE  REUNITED  WITH  THEM  IN 



HEAVEN.



I  STILL  HAVE  PANIC  ATTACKS  AND  CRY  AND  SO  WISH  I  COULD  SEE HER  BUT



THE  PRAYERS  OF  FRIENDS,  "ESPECIALLY"  WHO  PRAYED  FOR  PEACE  FOR  ME  HAVE



RECEIVED  YOUR  ANSWER  IN  PRAYER...  EVERYDAY  I  FEEL  "GOD'S  PERFECT



PEACE,"  MORE  AND  MORE.  LORETTA,  BERNIE, QUEEN MOTHER MAMAW,  MARY, KATH,



JUDY,  DONNA,  BARBARA, HOLLY,  SANDIE,  ERIN  AND  BENTLEY,  MICHELLE, GLORIA,  CHAR,



LYNN  B.,  EVELYN R,  CAROL  AND  LEXIE  RAE,  REBECCA,  DORIS  AND  TAWNA,  ROBBI,



MARTY,  JENNIFER,  SUE  S.,  KAREN  HARVEY  COX,  BETTY  B,  VINTAGE  LIZZY,  LAURIE,



SANDRA MATTA,  SUE  DRAUGHON,  TERESA  MARTENS,  HEATHER  THIBEAULT,  JAMIE,



TRACIE  GRACIE,  STACIE,  KELLY C,  TAMMY  NEIL,  WILDFLOWER,  SARES,  HEIDI  AT  BARGAIN



HUNTING,  MY  MOTHER,  MY  BROTHER  TED,  MY  IN-LOVES,  MY  HANDSOME  SON  AND  HIS



WIFE  MEGAN,  AND  SHERRY,  WHO  KEPT  EVERYONE  INFORMED  WHEN  AMY  WAS  IN 



THE  HOSPITAL.  HOWEVER,  AS  A  LOT  OF  SISTERS'  DO, IN  SPITE  OF  OUR  DIFFERENCES,  I  KNOW



HOW  DEEP  SHE  LOVED  AMY  AND  WOULD  HAVE  DONE  ANYTHING  HUMANLY  POSSIBLE 



TO  HELP  HER.   I  AM  JUST  ONE  WHO  CANNOT  LET  WHAT   SOMEONE  DID  FOR  MY



BELOVED  AMY  GO  UNNOTICED.  I  HATE  TO  MAKE  A  LIST  OF   



 PEOPLE  BECAUSE  THERE  IS  ALWAYS  ONE  PRECIOUS  PERSON  I  LEAVE  OUT  THAT  I 



WOULDN'T  HURT  FOR  THE  WORLD  OR  WOULD  EVER  PURPOSELY  LEAVE  OUT.



  I  ASK  GOD'S  SPECIAL  BLESSING  ON  THE  PEOPLE  LISTED  AND  THE  PEOPLE  NOT  LISTED.   

GRACIE  ANN  WANTS  TO  GIVE  A  PECK  TO  A  SPECIAL  GROUP  OF  PEOPLE  WHO



ARE  BEAUTIFULLY  TALENTED  AND  SO  MYSTERIOUS  AND  THEY  CREATE  UNDER



THE  NAME:  "CRICUT  CARD  FAIRY"



WELL  CRICUT  CARD  FAIRY  CONSIDER  YOURSELF  GRACIE  ANN  PECKED.



THAT  IS  THE  HIGHEST  AWARD  YOU  CAN  RECEIVE  IN  BLOGLAND



HAVE  A  GOOD  AFTERNOON  SWEET  BLOGGERS





23 comments:

Olde Dame Penniwig said...

Yes, grief and depression are two different things. And I think you are right that you will always carry that grief with you, because the loss of Amy is just so very great.

I do think Jesus is aware and is watching closely over you. He has His reasons for things. As a nurse you know this: Sometimes you have to let a patient hurt -- you stand and watch as they must move from the surgery gurney to the bed by themselves -- some might say, "How unfeeling of that nurse! She could just reach out and help a bit!"

But the nurse just bears this insult, because she knows it is taking more love and skill to let the patients move themselves. They have to do it, they cannot heal without it, and they would be set back if helped at that point.

But of course the nurse is there, ready. I think Jesus is there, ready. I also think Amy is there, ready. I feel so bad for your pain, though.

The White Farmhouse said...

Losing a child has to be one of the most awful, heartbreaking experiences that anyone could go through. I don't know how my cousin Amy does it. Last year 3 days after Christmas she lost one of her children. Ireland was only 11 months old and died in her sleep from unknown causes. I was amazed at Amy's strength to get through this. 6 weeks after losing Ireland, her husband committed suicide not being able to handle his depression. Still she goes on each and every day for her 3 remaining children. She is truly an amazing woman. Her love and strength seems boundless.

My thoughts and prayers go out to you for having to have to go through one of the hardest things imaginable to a parent. I can't even want to imagine what you are feeling.

The Quintessential Magpie said...

Praying for you, Debbie! Thanking the Lord for sustaining you as you put the pieces of your life back together.

XO,

Sheila

Mmm said...

Debbie, it's very nice to meet you. Thaks for leaving a comment. It took a while to figure out where you had left it though. Hee.

your blog is very light and fresh looking. nice.

BTw, it;s "BoxING" Day, not "BoxER" Day as you put, although that is kind of funny.

The bird on the card is an English Robin--they are the size of sparrows here, small and very darling. Always feels like cheer in a bleak mid winter's day.

So, will you join us on Creative Tuesdays perhaps?

After reading through you profile, my I just say I would appreciate your prayers as I am under a lot of family duress right now. Thank you.

Mmm said...

Ohmygoodness, that stroy from White farmhouse is so tragic. That poor poor woman. sometimes like can be so hard. I am sorry for your loss too.

Mmm said...

I am glad you have a very supportive family around and faith to carry you through it seems. Still, the loss is unbearable i'm sure at times. My heart aches for you here.

Sares said...

I wouldn' t expect the pain from losing a child would ever completely go away. It has to be the worst pain in the world. You are still and always in my prayers, hoping that you find strength to learn to live your life without Amy's "physical" presence, because I know her spirit must fly around you continuously, urging you on and filling you with all her love until the day you meet again.

Queenmothermamaw said...

Debbie it is evident in your posting that you are struggling, but moving on. That is the normal way. Whatever is normal. Each one moves ahead and falls back at their own pace. As Penniwig said a good nurse allows the pain and struggle so that the patient builds up strength. Blessings
QMM

Mmm said...

Debbie, feel free to leave comment on my most recent post too--easieir to find your comment that way after publish. If you are going to do the Creative Tuesday, please sign up where I announce the cheerio theme. thanks.

Also thanks for you dear tender felt comment about your daughter, helping people, etc. I just signed up to sponsor another world vision child. I jsut cry when i see all those kids and so much need. then i think of that skyscraper in Dubai -now the word's largest that cost $100bn or somthing crazy kike that--even the fountain was a million. A fraction of that money could feed all those kids for years to come!

Bernie said...

Oh sweet Debbie, you realize that your grief is not depression, many others will not. Great sadness is much different than depression and you are feeling a great sadness. We learn to accept and live with the sadness knowing that we must our child would want us to as we would want them to if it were us that had moved on first.....God never leaves us and if you listen closely you will hear Amy......:-) Hugs

Beautiful pear tree lane said...

Hello Debbie,
You are so right, quite a big difference between depression and grief. I have always believed that the things that happen to us no matter what...., happen so that we will be able to help others.


Everything you have shared I totally agree. Such great insight you have!!
You continue to challenge me to grow in my walk with the Lord.
Blessings,
Sue

Betsy from Tennessee said...

You are always in my thoughts and prayers, Debbie... I think you are doing fine... It is just going to take some time. Time doesn't heal but it helps.... Amy wants you to be happy and she also wants you to go on with your life. You are doing just that!! God Bless.
Hugs,
Betsy

Buttercup said...

Hi Debbie, Stopping by to say hello and let you know the prayers and hugs are with you today. Can we come in to Door two with you?

P.S. My prayers for Whitehouse Farm's cousin and family.

Terry said...

Howdy Debbie
Blessings to you sweetie.
My prayers continue for you and others as they walk this difficult path.
Your words are so deeply touching .
May you feel the depth of Gods healing day by day ,moment by moment .
I also add my prayers to yours for the Whitehouse farm family and so many others you faithfully share with us here in blogland.
You are truly an amazing woman like your precious Amy Dawn you are a gift from God.
Thank you for sharing such profound words today.
Big Hugs
God Bless You always

Chatty Crone said...

Just want to tell you again, like all the others - thoughts and prayers are being said for you every day.

Love and (((hugs)))
Sandie

LADY JANE'S EMPORIUM said...

Dear Debbie, Thank You for sharing this with us! In reading your words I felt the touch of an Angel I am sure. Debbie...Your hurt is so healing,your words touch my heart,it is in your determination to be strong that I gather strength. I hope to share it with you...or someone everyday!
I shall gather up the hearts..the love from your tree of the world...and I leave you with...remember they have not fallen...they do not go unpicked...they thru this post have been shared with us! And when I gather the hearts that have come from your tree...I will use them as seeds to replenish the world with love! Hugs my dear and thank you again so much for this beautiful posting!

Lynn @ Painting Thyme Needfuls said...

Debbie,
I'm glad you have chosen door #2. How can your heart not be broken when you have suffered one of the greatest loss's of all, a child. I can not begin to imagine what that is like. I'm thankful that if in some small way my words or expresssions of love to you made you smile for even a moment then I know I have succeeded in reaching out to you in this journey through grief that you are walking. No one can tell you "how to grieve" the right way...because there is no right way. I just hope that with each new day you can pick up some of the pieces to your broken heart (think of those PIECES as precious memories of Amy)and through you tears you will be able to smile again. Your heart will ALWAYS be broken, because a PIECE of it went to HEAVEN with Amy. Your strength amazes me sweet Debbie.
Hugs,
Lynn

Regina said...

Love the quote Debbie.
Thank you for the words.
Keep writing dear one.

Hugs and blessings!

Regina

Jan said...

Your new Blog is beautiful Debbie :) You and your family continue to be in my prayers each and every day and I'm wishing you some smiles along the way. Your love and compassion for others continues to inspire me my dear. You are definitely walking the path God chose for you, and I know He will lead you to brighter and happier days :)

My prayers for the Cousin of Whitehouse Farm Family as well. May God Bless her and her children.

Carmen C. said...

Hi Debbie, thanks for stopping by to visit:) I can imagine your fibro. is in a HUGE flare up after all you've been through, I had a big one after the passing of a family member a few years ago. Actually it hasn't been too bad, I am on cymbalta for it and it does help, although I've gained weight while on it. I'm in so much pain now from the discs, I probably wouldn't even notice if it was flaring! You have an amazing strength and faith Debbie, and you know you and Amy will be together again one day:) God had an important job for her that we don't know, but in the end we will all know and it will all make sense. In the meantime, we are all here for you to talk or listen and we love you dear Debbie!

Dawn said...

Hi Debbie, your new blog is simply beautiful, just like you and your sweet Amy Dawn. You are right about grieving and depression. Everyone grievs differently. I would rather carry the pain in my heart forever than feel nothing.

Papa Pete once told me it hurt to much too care so he made a concious decision in his teens to stop caring. It explained so much about his relationship with my father and aunts, and even us grandchildren. It wasn't until he was very old that he finally realized not caring was no way to live. He almost waited too late but I'm glad he finally saw the light.

Thank you for sharing.
Dawn

Marla at Always Nesting said...

Oh Debbie, honey, I have only just met you and yet today I cried with you. I have not walked in your shoes, but I certainly feel others grief. Thank you for stepping into my world and inviting me into yours. Big, big hugs to you. Marla

Debbie said...

I came across you cause I loved the name of your blog. I enjoyed it and will try and visit again. God bless, Deb

PS love all your quotes!