XOXOXOXOXOXO...AMY...XOXOXOXOXOXOX
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TODAY WE HAVE A FASHION DIVA FROM 1867
TO INTRODUCE PINK SATURDAY.......
MAY WE HAVE A
DRUMROLLLLLLLLL
WELCOME TO A BEAUTIFUL "SPRING" DAY
AND OUR FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK
"PINK SATURDAY."
OUR BEAUTIFUL HOSTESS IS
BEVERLY AND SHE IS
JUST PURRR-FECT DARLINGS
TO VISIT HER SITE AND CHECK OUT
THE LIST OF OTHER PINKS, GO TO
OR CLICK ON THIS LINK:
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THIS IS A PICTURE OF MY BELOVED AMY
AND LEILA WHEN THEY WERE CANCER FREE.
THEY "ALWAYS" DRESSED IN THE SAME COLORS
EVERYDAY...SOME DAYS THEY WORE THE VERY
SAME THING BUT AMY LOVED HATS. YOU CAN SEE
THERE AMY HAD HER MUSTARD SEED ON.
PLEASE REMEMBER TO PRAY FOR LEILA. SHE IS
IN A BATTLE FOR HER LIFE.
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THIS IS A PICTURE OF A FRUIT TREE BLOSSOM
THAT THE EDITOR OF BANNER HAUS OWNS.
I KNOW IT MUST SMELL VERY SWEET.
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I KNOW WE TELL EACH OTHER HOW IMPORTANT
WE ARE TO EACH OTHER. IT IS AMAZING HOW
ONLY THROUGH THIS LITTLE MACHINE, WE TYPE
OUT OUR INNER MOST FEELINGS TO ANY ONE WHO
WILL LISTEN AND YET IN REAL LIFE, WOULD
NOT EXPRESS THEM.
I HAVE NOT BEEN OUT OF THE HOUSE IN
5 MONTHS EXCEPT 11 TIMES...CHURCH, OUT TO
EAT FOR MY MOTHERS' BIRTHDAY AND RICHARD AND
I ATE ALONE ON EASTER AFTER CHURCH...TO THE
DRS. 4 TIMES, AND 5 TIMES TO AMY'S GRAVE.
I ASK RICHARD, MY DH, TO TAKE ME OUT IN
THE COUNTRY WHERE I COULD TAKE PICTURES
OF TREES AND NATURE COMING TO LIFE.
I COULD BREATH IN LIFE AND WAS SERANED
BY THE BIRDS. I WAS FREE TO CRY AND YELL
WHERE NOONE COULD HERE ME.
I WANT AMY BACK AND THAT AIEN'T GONNA
HAPPEN....I DON'T WANT LEILA, SHAUNA, CEEKAY,
LADY KATHERINE, COLETTE, SWEET ANN, ANASTASIA,
SHARON, ROY AND ELIZABETH, MARILYN, GYPSY LULU....
TO HAVE CANCER.
I SCREAMED AND PRAYED FOR THE MINERS
AND THEIR FAMILY IN WEST VIRGINIA.
HOW TRAGIC. I RAN OVER AND OVER IN MY MIND
HOW TO MAKE SOMETHING....IT WOULD HAVE TO
BE LIGHTWEIGHT AND AT A CERTAIN WIND SPEED
AND PRESSURE IT WOULD AUTOMATICALLY
DEPLOY LIKE AN AIR BAG IN A CAR BUT THIS
WOULD PROVIDE OXYGEN FOR A PERIOD OF TIME
AND WOULD COVER THEIR ENTIRE HEAD......LIFE
IS PRECIOUS......THERE ARE SO MANY ENGINEERS
OUT THERE WHO COULD CREATE SUCH A THING.
THERE SHOULD BE SPECIAL FILTERS THEY
WEAR TO PREVENT BLACK LUNG.........I LISTENED
OVER AND OVER...."THEY KNOW THE RISKS EVERY
DAY THEY GO INTO THE MINE." WHEN I WAS
A NURSE, THERE WERE RISKS.....WE WERE PROVIDED
THINGS TO PREVENT THE RISKS FROM HAPPENING.
A MINE IS NO DIFFERENT.....THE OWNERS
SHOULD BE ASHAMED.
I AM SO SORRY I HAVE HAD SO MUCH TO SAY.
ONE THING GOOD FOR YOU, IS THAT YOU CAN
LOOK AT THE PICTURES AND THEN GO ON AND
THAT IS REALLY OKAY WITH ME.
DEATH AFFECTS PEOPLE IN SO MANY WAYS.....
THEY DECORATE THEIR HOME...THEY TAKE UP
BAD HABITS...THEY SHOP EXCESSIVELY.....THERE
ARE SO MANY, MANY WAYS.
I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT A THING EXCEPT TO PRAY
FOR PEOPLE WHO HAD CANCER OR WERE VERY SICK.
MY HOUSE AND PERSONAL THINGS JUST DID NOT
MEAN A THING EXCEPT FOR THE TWO PAINTINGS
FROM ERIN HOUGHTON, ALL THE CARDS AND GIFTS
THAT WERE SENT TO AMY AND ME....THE LIST
IS SO VERY LONG.
I FEEL LIKE THE FOG OF
GRIEF IS NOT AS THICK NOW, AND I CAN
SEE BETTER. FATHER GOD BLESS MY
RICHARD FOR HOLDING ME EVERYTIME
I HAVE CRIED AND HE CRIED. MY RICHARD
LOVED HIS DAUGHTER DEARLY...SHE WAS OUR
ONLY CHILD FOR ALMOST 7 YEARS, AND RICHIE
WAS OUR MIRACLE....THAT'S ANOTHER DAY
I FEEL LIKE A RABBIT HOPPING HERE,
HOPPING THERE, AND THEN STOPPING TO
TWITCH MY NOSE AND LOOK AROUND.
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GRACIE ANNE AND I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR SPENDING A PART OF YOUR
SATURDAY WITH US. WE LOVE YOU AND LOOK FORWARD TO YOUR
COMMENTS.
HUGS
SIMPLY DEBBIE
27 comments:
Debbie,
What a heartfelt sorrowful post!! My heart goes out to you as I can not fathom the death of a child. I am so very sorry for your tremendous grief! My thoughts and my prayers are always with you, my Victorian friend!
Debbie, another true Victorian
Dear Debbie,
I'm thinking of you and your family. And prayers are being sent for Leila. I hope the wonder of spring brings you a small measure of joy, my friend.
xo
Claudia
Hi Debbie,
Yes, let everything that has breath, praise the Lord!!
I stopped by for Pink Saturday and I thank you for sharing Holly's beautiful pink blossoms.
I am so sorry for your loss of Amy! They say time heals, and I guess it does after a while, but then one never does get over the loss of a child. It is something that you begin to live with and savor the beautiful memories. God bless you and Richard during this time! You are in my prayers.
Blessings,
Sandi
Oh honey, I'm reading this post and my heart aches for your loss and your grief. I can't imagine and I hope the fog lifts a little every day for you.
Dear Sweet Debbie,
I wish I could just have the right thing to say to help you feel better. Losing a child- I can't even imagine the depth that pain can go to. I do know that she must have been pretty darned special for God to have needed her back so soon. My thought, prayers and sparkly hugs are with you and your family, know you are loved.
Thank you for reminding me about Pink Saturday's true meaning.
Have a Happy and blessed Pink Saturday!
Sparkly hugs,
Tobi and the Pixies
I can hear the pain you are having. BUT Amy would NOT want you to give up on life because she went back to her Father in Heave before you, sweetpea. She misses you just as much as you miss her. This is but a moment in time and it's a trial we allllll—every last one of us on earth—will have to go through at some time. Nooooo, it's not easy and I'm not looking forward to it but you know the end of the Book, sugar, and it's a glorious ending. I'm truly sooo sad for you to have to experience this. You do need to get out of the house and live a beautiful life so Amy will remember that and not a sad mommy sitting at home "not living." Truly, this is what life is all about. The trials and how we get through them. I've never looked forward to the day I'll be separated from the Love of my Life for a season but I know it's coming. Be of good cheer and LIVE, my sweet friend.
My favorite toy at 10 was probably my jump rope. It's hard to remember that far back but I love jumping rope and never had a Barbie! Imagine that!! ;-)
xoxo,
Connie
Hi Debbie!
I am praying for your family and Leila.
Know that God is bigger than illness and we are God's and God is eternal --so we are eternal. As God's expression we last forever. Partin is temporary...yes, painful but, temporary.
Peace....
Please try and comment and let me know if you can't....
love, kelee at www.katillacshack.com
Happy Pink Saturday Debbie dearest.
I'm just here. Reading everything.
Love,
Regina
Oh sweetie, I am glad you are taking time to do what you have to do for you. It is not right that any of us have to deal with cancer, all our sweet loved ones! I love the beautiful pictures you shared today and I do hope you can feel a little better everyday. God knows what is right and we have to believe he takes us at our time. I do so hope that you can read our silly Pink posts today and smile! Just for a minute. Have a super great extra special wonderful weekend!
Happy Pink Saturday!
Hugs, Lisa
Debbie,
Bless your soul ♥ ♥ ♥
When we enter the darkness it seems we have to go to *pitch black* before seeing the light again...just know that you will! Grieving is hard on the spirit and soul...please hand over all that you can to God..He handles it so much better than we do. And going to the wide open spaces to scream always seems to clear out so much of the oppresive energy that we build up during these times.
Thanks so much for stopping by for a visit..do come back soon.
Hugs,
Stephanie ♥
I know each feeling you are feeling....it is hard...it is still so fresh for you....give yourself time...it will get easier . I have posted two websites that you might like to go to...it has information on dealing effectively with GRIEF like ours.
Rose
www.centerforloss.com
You may have to cut and paste these into Google.
http://www.centerforloss.com/oscommerce-2/catalog/product_info.php?products_id=133&osCsid=340c1dd29d94b8adefd3f0a3b244bead
I do so hope the grief lessens in time for you Debbie. You have had such a heartbreaking year. I hope soon being able to breathe is much easier for you.
Thank you for sharing such a wonderful pink post with us all and I hope you enjoy the Spring Season and all it has to show us.
I am so sad for Leila...it's so very unfair.
Beautiful picture of Amy and Leila in happier times. Amy was such a good dresser, what a sense of fashion. I love those shoes she has on, I can just see the toes peeking out.
I like your idea of the oxygen bubble that the miners could have. People say "they know the risks" but the miners are forced to take the risks, it is the ONLY jobs they can get and they love their famiies more than their own lives. It's so tragic.
Hang in there, Debbie.
Your friends are always here for you Debbie, and by all means you SAY, or YELL, whatever you want or need to say! May God bless and comfort you.. ((hugs)) ~tina
Debbie ~ I can't imagine what you have been through. You have so many meaningful things to say....thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. Hopefully soon you will feel like getting out a little more. Happy Pink Saturday.
Dear Debbie, your post has really moved me. I can only imagine what you have been through, but please know that I am thinking about you and praying for you. You will see that if you search for peace in your heart through God, you will eventually find it! I wish you sunny days and never forget that there are so many people out there who think of you and who are here for you, even if "only" through this little machine...
Have a blessed Sunday,
Erika
Oh Debbie,
Since I am a new follower I don't know you that much yet, but as I read your post it just made my heart so sad for you that I cried too! I have a friend who is going thru this now too. She just lost her son about a month ago, he was hit by a car and was only 15 yrs. old. I have been praying for you since yesterday and had our Sunday school class pray for you as well. I know the pain must be unbearable at times, as a Mom
I can only imagine how horrible it would be, but my heart and prayers are with you dear one.
Only the Lord can heal such grief but know the Lord loves you and know He understands and can take your questions, cause if you are like most people you have questions. Once I struggled
with the death of a Mom in our church who had
4 children. In fact, I did a post on it, in case
you might want to read it was on March 13th of this year, if you check my archives!
There is so much sadness in this world, and so many questions we don't always have answers for, but it is good to know that we serve a God who does know all the answers even when we don't!
He knows the beginning to the end and sees from a helicopter view, we only see things like a parade going by, one event at a time.
Know I care about your pain and will surely be
praying for you hon,
May the grief that you let go of while you were
out in that place of solitude bring a new level of healing to you and hubby.
Blessings sweet friend,
Nellie
Dearest Debbie,
What a joy to see a new face coming to Nowhere and who knows the darling Dutchess. She is my beloved friend and inspiration, as all the other members of Nowhere are. The Dutchess, Penny and myself are the main artist, me being the creator of the two rats you just saw and my husband being an excellent writer and contributor. I too am a believer and it is remarkable to see how many believers there are out there blogging and being connected. My heart and prayers go out to you Debbie for these souls who have cancer; both my parents died of it and it is a devastating enemy. Thank you for your kind and playful comments. Please come again to Nowhere, Wit's End and visit my blog, Castles Crowns and Cottages.
Many blessings to you this day, dear, kind lady! Anita
Hi Sweet Debbie!
I loved that you stopped by! We are getting the
keys to our new place tomorrow morning, we're so excited!! I think we've boxed everything but the dogs at this point... we built this house and lived here for 20 yrs. It's been a wonderful home and we couldn't have asked for a better area to raise our 2 darling boys. But as we've packed the home has taken on the blank slate of a house. It's time for us to move on to another chapter of our lives.
I can hardly wait to show pics of the new place. And use our "stuff" in new ways to create a new home.
Please keep my son Russ in your prayers. He's having issues with his health again... the drs dont know what is causing this. He may be having another plasma exchange soon if the weakness & tingling in his limbs doesn't stop. You are a prayer warrior Debbie!! I thank God for prayer warriors like you. Your words touched me so deeply this morning and I pray for your strength and Richard's. You WILL survive because God has work for you. There is so much work to do before He returns.
I send my love, prayers & big ole hugs to you dear sweet Debbie! Sherry
Hi Debbie! Thanks so much for your sweet comment on my blog! Please come back and visit any time!
Sweetie, I am so sorry you are hurting so much right now. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through, losing a child must be the hardest thing in the world! But losing a parent is the next hardest, and I lost my daddy last September. I have been (and still am to an extent) rutted down in depression for many months. Then in January my family had a big blow up, and I almost had a nervous break down. For my own sanity I have had to remove myself from them, and it is so hard, but I cannot be a part of a family to whom truth and honesty means nothing. So I am trying to learn to live again. I am forcing myself to get out and get involved, do things that would make my dad proud. And that is what your daughter would want. Debbie, your daughter is living like we will never be able to live on this earth! She is happy and healthy and whole, and she would want you to be living as well. I can almost guarantee you that she would tell you to get out and get involved and do things! Go do things you enjoy, look for beauty in things again, and do things to make you laugh! Laughter is so healing! And over time, while the missing her will not end, you will be able to find joy again and think of her with a smile on your face, knowing she is well. That is my prayer for you, sweetie! Take care, and may God Bless! Becky
Hi Debbie! I'm so glad you popped in and told me about this blog. What a heart touching post it is. Your heart is so big and so full of love for so many - you'll have many jewels in your crown one day. Thank you for sharing your heart with us and reminding us what one big part of our mission hear on earth is - to pray for others!
Blessings,
Shelia ;)
Dear Debbie,
Unlike the others I am not full of flowery words. I will say I am glad you screamed and yelled. I know it is cleansing, you have more to do before you can begin to clear the fog. Dig deep and let that little body of yours scream. I love ya sister, and always know I think of you each day.
T
Dear Debbie,
You and your family continue to be in our prayers.
I just can't believe that Amy's friend Leila has cancer too - that is so odd to me. I'm so sorry that it has to touch you again. I know you are still hurting about Amy dying. I'll be praying. sandie♥
Dear Sweet Debbie,
Thank you so much for what you wrote to me about. Your words are a comfort.
Also, your friends are blessed indeed to have you as a friend.
Melissa
Debbie, I know how your heart feels :( I have not been able to visit blogs in days ... but I think of you daily. I have had really rough days in the past few days. I went to Amber's gravesite on Sunday and just laid there and cried. It has been a very emotional week for me ... yesterday was spent all day crying. We just have to let our emotions out. Hopefully today will be better for you and me. I am praying for you and your family.
HUGS!
Donna
Debbie, your always in my thoughts and prayers, I love that picture of Amy and Leila, such beautiful, awesome girls! I love the blossoms on Holly's tree, our apple trees are just starting to bloom here and the smell of them is so wonderful:)
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